::Jane and Josh- The Real Meaning of Love ::


There was a girl named Jane and a boy named Josh. These two young adults have been together for 5 years and everyday they loved each other more and more. To understand their journey let us first understand what made their love grow each day.

One day Jane asked Josh, “If I told you that I liked you, would you take it as a joke?”

Josh replied, “Yes I would.”

She asked, “Why?”

And josh said, “Because I know you don’t like me, I know you love me!”

Just by that reassurance, their day became more loving than when it started out.

On Valentine’s Day, Jane wanted to know if Josh is really loves her. As so she started asking few questions.

Jane asked Josh if she was pretty, he said “No”.

She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever, he said “No”.

Then she asked him if he would cry if she walked away, he said “No”.

She had heard enough; she needed to leave.

As Jane walked away Josh grabbed her arm and told her to stay. He said “You’re not pretty, you’re beautiful. I don`t want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. And I wouldn’t cry if you walked away, I would die.”

So now do you understand how and why their love blossom?




:: The One That Was Never Mine ::


I met him in my first year of Poly, he was older than me, but I loved him. I got to admit that I was still attached when I got to know him. He was the reason why I broke up.

We got to know each other at the gym and he was my trainer, I enjoyed his company. We started teasing each other  a lot, but I never told him that I liked him or anything, I was confused but I didn’t want to tell him about it. I guess I was scared I would push him away.

I thought about him constantly,  I would even loss concentration in class because my mind was wishing I was with him. So one night we went to a friend’s house. We were alone in the room, started looking intensely into each others eyes and one thing led to another and we ended up having sex.It went on like that for a while.

Its probably been a few months and still he didn’t say he liked me or anything. Little did I know that he was inlove with my best friend.

 When they dated I left him alone because I didn’t want to hurt my friend. After a while he started calling me again , saying that he wanted to see me. We ended up having sex again.I didn’t want to hurt my friend, but I was in love with him, I wasn’t thinking.

We would meet at a quiet beach just to be away from everyone. I tried to let go of my feelings for him by dating other guys. But that didin’t stop me from seeing him. My friend found out about us and they broke up.

My friend and I are no longer friends. Me and him on the other hand, have been seeing each other a lot lately, he said he liked me he and  even told me that he thinks about me. I really wanted to believe that me and him would end up together.

 It was going so great but little did I know that he was still in love with my friend. I was just a rebound guy but I told myself if that is all I could be to him and I would accept it because I wanted him so badly.

I had a feeling that they were getting back together and I was scared. I wanted to tell him that I love him but I knew he doesn’t feel the same way and it was killing me inside. But I wont cry. I don’t know what I would do if they would get back together. I won’t be able to handle it .

It breaks my heart to know that he would always be the guy I never had.


:: Jon ::

You meant so much to me that words can’t explain.

You’ve been by my side through thick and thin.

You taught me how to see the world in another’s eyes.

You helped me find who I really was, and who I want to be, you filled my heart with so much joy, but then something went wrong; it was in a blink of an eye how I walked away.

You started to fade away in my heart.

I broke you heart but now it is mine that is broken.

 Today you see me and you told me how so different I am now.

You heard that I’ve gone down the wrong road.

But don’t worry, I am getting myself fixed.

Thank you for fogiving me.

Thank you for still being able to look into my eyes though I have hurt you.

I left a hole in your heart when I walked out the your door, but maybe now you can move on knowing why I did it.


:: The Boy And The Butterfly ::

One of the most popular stories I heard as a child and I would love to share with you.

A boy comes upon a butterfly emerging from its cocoon. He sees the nascent butterfly struggling. The cocoon flails back and forth as the butterfly struggles to set itself free. The boy has pity on the painful struggle of the butterfly and cuts open the cocoon. The butterfly is now free. Moments later, the boy sees the butterfly and it is limping. He had hoped to watch it spread its wings and fly on its life journey. Instead it is in pain. Its wings are glued shut. It cannot move and it soon dies.

The boy learnt the lesson that, to let the butterfly struggle was necessary for its wings to become healthy. Without enduring the struggle required to emerge from the cocoon, the butterfly could not gain the strength it need to fly to freedom.


:: The One That Got Away ::

I love kissing you in the morning before I leave, while you’re still asleep.

As I close the door, I picture did you feel my kiss?

Maybe your hand is searching for me in bed.

When I get home I greet you and you were there preparing dinner.

I kiss the back of your neck just to annoy you.

When we go out to take the train, I kiss you when going through a tunnel.

That way I can be sure you’re not kissing anybody else in the dark.

I kiss you each time we get off the train just to remind you how much I enjoy our little trip.

Because every journey, no matter how short, is a memory of love between me and you.

I remember you use to take me to cinema to watch love stories, despite knowing I am not a fan of it.

But I would go to make to smile and get a chance for you to kiss me when there is a kissing scene.

Yesterday, I walked down the street where you used to live, when we first met.

I recalled one night spent at your place, it was so hot we didn’t sleep the whole night.

Do you remember that night?

Do you remember our first kiss?

I was telling myself that I would never get up the courage to kiss you but I guess you gave me the courage I needed.

Do remember the night we had a little picnic by the river?

The sky was so dark and we kissed beneath so many stars.

But my favourite kiss are the ones when we kiss and make up.

Because each time we argue, I’m scared that you will never kiss me again.

But on one fated day, you meet with a terrible accident.

I rushed down to the hospital and when I did I hoped by the time I reached, I would still be able to tell you all the things I wanted to say to you.

As I held you hands for that last time, I told you all that I needed.

How do I love you? Let me count the ways.

My soul can reach you when I you are out of sight.

I love you to the level of every day.

I swear I will love you forever with my whole heart.

For I have seen only you, admired only you and desire only you.

As I finished what I had to say, you whisper to me for the last time.

I am very sorry we can’t be together.

I will be leaving  soon and I don’t know when I will ever see you again.

But before I leave, I wanted to let you know I love and care for you.

Where ever I go I will always love you no matter what happens.

Just wanted to say goodbye, I love you. I always have and always will.

Thank you for coming into my life.


:: October ::

What’s changed? Nothing.

Still feel the same,still want the same thing and still making the same mistakes.

But it is a phase I believe. Why would God put you through all the trouble if he doesn’t want you to come out alive right?

Addiction to me isn’t a behavior. It is something someone seeks to free themselves from despair and loneliness. Don’t you ever wonder why it takes forever to stop an addiction?

To you it maybe weird but to them it is completely normal. It is what keeps them going everyday. A reason to live for the day.

Sadly in this world, we are a victim of judgement. Why do we have to be convicted by those who don’t ever know half of what is going on? And when the verdict is out, is there truly justice?

Your strength you think helps the cripple but you will never understand what new heights of weakness your have just raised for that poor soul.

We play God too much sometimes, in the end in the eyes of other, we are just the devil in their lives.

You don’t have to give him advice, all you need sometimes, is just to be there to lend a listening ear or be the shoulder he can cry on.

October reminds me of a year that is almost passing. The regrets I still dwell on. The moments that have become memories I still live on. But I still have the faith knowing that I still have two more months to change and make the difference. The journey doesn’t start here, it is the contuniation of what has pass thus far.


::Mirror mirror::

I have always believed that a portrait captures a person far better than a photograph.It truly takes a human being to really see another human being.

How much I suffer in my daily life, the person next to me may never understand. Yet they choose to mock me and disbelieve the life I live.

Wait till they hear about my criminal record. Will they still be my friend, like they did yesterday.

In my wildest dreams I would never have imagined I would once again be in this position, where precious minutes count.I know I had done some bad things in the past, but so has everyone else. I can’t change the past. But the future could be a different story. And it had to start somewhere.

I think I understand your feelings. I used to have some problems with it, myself. When I was growing up, I just seemed like a fool. I dated the wrong man; made one foolish mistake after another; but as I grew up in time, I just find it hard to fall in love with anyone. I am trapped! I had a choice, I can either accept a life of misery or struggle against it. And I chooses to struggle.