You asked me if I was tired and I replied with a smile.
In reality I am just sad.
I don’t speak as much as I used too.
But inside me, I am screaming.
I can’t understand how my life ended up this way.
It is as though I no longer have any say.
On how I walk,
How I talk.
My memory is mostly of my past.
Living in the present moment is just like looking into the future.
It is what haunts me each day.
What has happened,
What I have become.
I sometimes wonder how long this will go on.
But most importantly, I need to know who I owe my whole happiness to.